the hardest thing to say…(i wrote this a couple of years ago and was posted on my friendster blog. it was the coolest thing to do back then)

a short word…

sometimes meaningless…

…

but do they really how hard it is for me to say it to someone who is very important to me and so close to my heart?

on that day i wished for another choices so that i cant say that word, but the gods didnt grant my wish…

i was looking in her eyes, shes looking into mine…

no one dared to speak, no one dared to ask…

tears are flowing from her eyes im trying to be strong hold mine,but it seems that im so weak during those moment and i cant help myself…

we were just there, standing in the middle of nowhere…

wishing we could hold our hands forever…

praying that somehow that very moment will last…

but we must face it, say that goddamn word…

at last she spoke, she uttered “G…Gd..Gdb..”

she broke down and cried a cry that seems an eternity for me..

i never thought about my action, i just realized that im kissng her already…

a very long and passionate kiss..

and then, i looked into her eyes and told it to her… then i walked away, leaving her alone, i didnt even dare to look back, coz i know how painful it might be to see her cry…

im sorry, i know i made the right decision, i know i chose the right one, this decision would, somehow, i think will  lessen our misery..

i didnt mean it, i just have to…

i love you…

“Goodbye.”